Benchmark

A lot of works...so sleepy, need a nap

Fire Red

anyway, there was a fire in my neighbourhood, quite big, 3 house was gone, but no one injured I hope, Mey got a hamster...named hamha, cute all white Albino Campbells Dwarf Hamster with red eyes

this is not Hamha, hamha just looks like it

Eureka!

I Did it again!!! darn it!!

Moderate

In this month I already watch 3 movies on the theatre...thats a record, I sprained my ankle again, on the same spot and realtively in the same place and same time....sooo stupiddd

Incomplete

Coulnd't sleep....having bad mood? dunno, tired body but my brain won't rest

Heartpounding

I done many stupid things, and some criminals too...and I did it again...a fraud....will I get it through this time?

Robbed

The room in front of me just lost a laptop this night, wow it could be me rite?, people nowadays are tend to be careles, I too must double up my guard

New Wallet

Ok, after made it up with Mey,I "skipped" for a day and my job is mounting high! But I do had some fun thou, and I want to do that again :D , but that's another story, in a way I got a new wallet, lots of work waiting

Review

Ok I had been reviewing myself, my life, my faith and my love, as usual love and pride, pride will bring me to nothing, and what keep my relation for all this time is love, not pride, so after a lot of reading, seeking guidance, reviewing historical event....I'll fight for my life, I'll fight for my love too...And I must fight for my faith as well. Love is....Seeing, love is sacrificing, love is enduring, and love is forgiving, love override hatred, anger, and despair. Love can override many things....I guess that what I need for now...

Refrain

All this time, I was a solid Individual, I will face all my challenge all by my self, my faith made me that way, but when I'm down...And alone...I write, its one of my way to release pressure inside, but then I had someone , I had to share my life, at first I always keep it for myself, all the feeling inside, me that always try to help and understand, little by little I reveal myself, that I too had problems, I too can be overwhelmed by problems, I too lose my temper....And try to had support, different kind of support, I'm not that kind of person who can just said what's inside of me when I'm down...I don't want to be alone, just a presence of someone I care by my side is enough, someone that can understand , I will reveal it with the time, so please just stay with me and believe in me, It will raise my spirit up and gave me strength to move on.

seems that I aim to high , revealing my downside is not wise , maturity is not a gift, maturity is something that must be learned through hardships , so in the end I still had to depend on my self , I am what I am , I need to reconsider how I manage my life from now on , its not the time yet to depends on my love life to resolve my downside, another way to found a resolve , another way to raise up my spirit. I guess my love life is not yet mature, need a lot of learning, I lose my faith this last half year...I seriously think it should be reinstated

Love is Blue

Blue, blue, my world is blue
Blue is my world now I'm without you
Gray, gray, my life is gray
Cold is my heart since you went away

Red, red, my eyes are red
Crying for you alone in my bed
Green, green, my jealous heart
I doubted you and now we're apart

When we met how the bright sun shone
Then love died, now the rainbow is gone

Black, black, the nights I've known
Longing for you so lost and alone
Gone, gone, the love we knew
Blue is my world now I'm without you.

Falling

Don't let yourself be hurt this time.
Don't let yourself be hurt this time.

Then I saw your face
Then I saw your smile

The sky is still blue
The clouds come and go
Yet something is different
Are we falling in love?

Don't let yourself be hurt this time.
Don't let yourself be hurt this time.

Then your kiss so soft
Then your touch so warm

The stars still shine bright
The mountains still high
Yet something is different
Are we falling in love?

Falling
Falling
Are we falling in love?

Solitaire

Yeah, Go Ahead, Made my day! I though that I'm not alone anymore, but you know what? I thought WRONG! I always be alone...all this time..Alone...lonesome...its all return to nothing now, I just keep letting me down and down...and alone... I thought I just need someone by my side through this day, and I'll be fine...I don't want to be alone...but I thought wrong again, all I get is just a cold shoulder ,a closed and locked door. I'm all alone by my self....seems like Every Road that I take, Takes me down...my life is tumbling? ...what once was happy now is sad.... Because of that it’s killing me inside, why I feel that I lost everything? Everything that matters to me..., Ironic that just few days ago I write that I forget what loneliness is, and I remember it now, it’s all hurt and pain, loneliness is....