Trust

"I love you but I don't trust you" That Words hurt me more than If she said "I hate you", Love should be based on trust? How come she love me if she's not put her trust on me? Then it explain a lot, She build an enormous wall againts me, because she's not trust me, She always had blind jealousy againts me, because she's not trust me, why I always hesitate to speak my mind to her? Because I'm afraid that I may hurt her..Since she's not trust me, I'm in vain....I knew that to trust people we had to know first how is it to be trusted by people, only then we able to trust them back, I always trust my love..Or am I? If I do trust her, why she's not trust me back?, where do I made a mistake here?, I still trust on her...I will find a way...

Hunchbacking

I found the one who took My cell phone, I want to crush him with all my might, but it seems that the flow of time is againts me, either I got sick or that bastard is not at place, in other way, this week will be so busy, I hope my health not turn againts me...

Talk to the wall

When one be subject of hatred and jealousy, one take a defensive stance, one will ask for reason, but one also facing a wall, one can expect hatred from the wall, expect jealousy, expect despair from one self, expect coldness, expect anger, expect tears! But one can't expect for a thing, the Answer !, one won't get an answer from a wall, when that happened, one see with eyes clouded in anger and hatred, toward wall attitude and toward one self, for being so irresponsible, one feel despair, sometimes one feel of runaway from the wall, but one won't do that, one had love, one must breach the wall! One is struggling for life, one will be a champion in faith

Hope

Maintaining hope is not easy, especially with attitude, its no easy to deal with our own attitude, not to mention with someone else attitude, even if that someone is close to us, I might be egoist to send a short message and expect it to be replied, maybe that someone are to busy to notice, to busy to spare 15 second of their time to said something and then send it, just 15 second and my heart will stop pounding in worried, I expect to high, and when things doesn't came up to my expectation I got irritated, a little bit maybe, but it made me talk out of my usual control, which may offend someone, and which it is I presume, but if that someone refuse to speak their mind, why that someone feel offended till sad, and gave tears? It made me irritated more, am I that annoying so that someone refuse to talk to me? a misscommunication is really an enemy of relationship

Preparing

Well, even if I'm positively got a job, but it won't start till the middle of the month, and expected salary will be at next month, so I'm still a sitting ducks and Mey is my goddes to support my life, I must prevail.I must not let my dearest people be dissapointed.

Obituary

Mr Wibisana, South district Shibucho passed away this morning, and I'm going to his funeral today, may all his effort and bravery for kosenrufu guide him.

Exhausted

Argh!! # times and still failed??

Exhausted

This damn blogger, why did it so difficult to even post a message? After some contribution for general SGIna meeting, Me and Mey goto GM plaza, Ps.Baru, some shooping and fix my glasses, and go to Roxy, where we got a little accident, Mey got lost! ^^;. but thankfuly this not lead to a quarrel, so got a lot of to do tommorowm I must be well prepared

Great Assembly

Waiting...life is waiting, but there he go..i'm going!

Advance Forward

Hooray, I'm employed! finaly , so I'm not that useless, the employment will be started at 15 october, quite a relief, by a rough sketches I will be able to overcome my debt and save a little bit of money for my first year, which mean a huge advantage for me, in other occasion I had a rather hard time on my relationship, it couldn't be helped since both Me and Mey had a lot of pressure, Attitude is the key to solve this, endurance is also a must, both me and Mey had our own Habit, which is sometimes offend each of us in many ways, I try to change, as My faith says, human revolution is possible, if I want to change others, I had to start in within my self first, keeping relation is a challenge that must be conquered, I will not be defeated or be hindered, I'm looking forward to be champion in my life